The inspiration to my works originated from the links
between mental illness and creativity and the outcomes of the links between
them. It was a subject that I found really interesting and wanted to bring it
into my work. I started to develop the theme of obsession and the compulsion to
make or control something by creating repetitive and very obsessive circle
drawings with biro, on reflecting on these I decided that without realising I
was controlling a situation that was developing within the drawing until I felt
comfortable with it. I wanted to develop this idea and concept so I started
using ink to create unpredictable shape that I could then control with the
obsessive circles. I felt these worked very well, but I wanted to introduce paint
and came up with the idea of provoking unpredictable marks by folding the
canvas material up and then painting a series of circles on it before opening it
up and controlling it with the circles.
For my final body of work I decided to build the paint circles
up until they covered the whole background before making the decision on adding
the circles, however the amount of circles on there balanced out the uncontrolled
and I felt comfortable leaving it without adding any more to it. The terms work
as all about making the work comfortable and controlled enough to leave it with
me feeling confident about it. The paint allowed me to become more controlled
than the ink did with my mark making which to me allowed me to take my work to
the next level of development and it became a lot more successful to me.
Throughout this work I have been heavily influenced by the Japanese
artist Yayoi Kusama who now lives and works in Japan with a mental illness and
her use of repetitive marks was a great influence on my work. Her mental Illness
makes her see Hallucinations that she then reflects in her work to ease her
mind. I have looked at a great breath of artists to make sure that I get a good
diversity in me work such as Kara Black, Niki de Sant Phalle and Agnes martin. My
work this term has been constant developments of the last one, the each lead
onto each other some didn't work as well as I hoped, but they lead me onto the
next development.
When I developed my concept I wanted to create something
that completely gave me peace of mind that was balanced and controlled to the
point where it need to be, by creating this work it has actually made me
realise how controlling I am in everyday life and what my response is when
something isn't how I want it to be.